Tuesday, January 25, 2005Y
happy CNY!! lols..
bleahhs.. my mom cook dunno wad.. so smelly!!! think is some cuttlefish thingy or wad.. *gagg* really v smelly.. hahas but feel hungry now lehs.. hmmm but improvement sia.. din eat anything since i came home.. usually like eat alot 1.. haha.. yaya.. maybe also cos now is dinner time already also.. lols.. brb.. gotta eat dinner.. hmmm just fin dinner.. v nice.. hahas.. hmmm the soup got cuttlefish tase abit weird.. other than that is v nice.. hehes..
hmmm tml is x-country.. sian la.. i cant run lors.. sure like last of the last like that.. :( but they all say wanna walk through the whole thing also.. hmmm maybe got ppl pei me? lols my ct v funny.. suddenly suggest tml after x-country go treat us eat roti prata.. like hmmm.. so weird la.. i mean most teachers must be like v close with us den follow us to eat lunch together.. den like we hardly know her den she come n invite us along.. v weird.. wad if every1 dun wan go tml? haas.. xcept that it's free n lots of my fren have expressed interest in going.. wahahaha
ehs.. so sian everyday.. always have to do math.. n so difficlt i always dunno how to do 1.. so in the end like left lots undone.. cny like still v far away.. bahs.. 'jie da huan xi' start le.. think i continue later.. today's 'jie da huan xi' v funny.. hahahaha.. hmmm cny coming n i haven bought new clothes.. think i must really go out one day n shop.. bleahs.. hehe luckily dad say we going back on new yr's eve.. den can skip sch n the CO performance.. think maybe next mon dun have to go cny rehearsal also.. haha den good mahs.. no need go home late..
just now we had a huge fight with my bro.. he scolded bigky jian4 san1 ba1.. and she just went crazy.. just realise that sometimes words, even if u dun really mean it when u said it, will cause lots of hurt too.. well.. nobody likes to be made fun of and nobody likes to be called an idiot.. and i keep calling my bro idiot.. ya he's very unbearable and really annoying and okay.. idiotic.. but a person really can see himself/herself.. i dun think he will feel that he's idiotic even though like that's precisely the reason why we call him that and will start to change..
i think it'll just build up until like today.. it came all out.. maybe being an only boy in the family, he will sort of be left out? i dunno.. nv asked him.. i guess he mad bigky real mad.. me 2.. tian 2.. we're always like this.. always 3 against 1.. ya.. maybe he's wrong n all that.. but he cant see it.. for all he can see is his 3 big sisters ganging against him and shouting at him? and after all the things we said to him and he'll just feel miserable for himself? weird.. when did i start to think from his perspective?
bigky took 1 tiny little sweet from him and he threw his temper and started calling her names.. wad's his reason for it? cos she din ask for his permission.. wad? like when did he start to ask for Our permission when he took our things.. it's always after the whole thing then we find out by ourselves.. he get so angry if we even touch his stuff.. when did he even start to think we may feel the same way if he took our things? sure.. bigky always call him jian4 ren2.. not without a reason though.. at least we feel that there's a reason.. cos he made mom, dad and abt every1 else so angry.. either he didn't do his hw or he played too much games or din study for exams.. is that reason enough?
why didn't he do well in his exams? his reason.. not my fault i cant do well it's just that i'm bad in sch work.. to him maybe it sound reasonable enough.. but in our eyes.. we see things that he did.. which obviously he's oblivious to.. he didn't do his hw when he's got time.. he's lazy(well i admit is one of my faults too).. he spends too much time either playing games or calling his friends to talk about gaming stuff.. i know he's not stupid.. though i keep calling him that.. he just didn't try hard enough..
bigky got angry at him calling her jian4 san1 ba1 and yelled at him.. hit him.. cos he has no respect for her.. his elder sister.. wad he say? she(we) called him lots of names too.. much more.. and we didn't show him respect too.. i agree.. though i'm still angry at him.. maybe sometimes we scolded him abit too harshly(i keep recalling to the time i keep calling him bai2 chi1 cos i feel that he's wasting his time washing his harmonica but of cos i was angry and din realise i'd also feel hurt if some1 keep calling me bai2 chi1)..
well.. maybe we don't have nice tempers in this house.. i think it's something we all have to change.. i know no1 likes to be called names even though he/she is really being very bad in the eyes of the person who called them names? hmmm when u start thinking wad the other person will feel maybe u'll become better? i dunno.. i dun think he'll start doing self reflections just yet.. probably still feeling sorry for himself.. which is wad i'd do if someone(mom/dad) scolded me.. thinking about all the injustice that were done to himself maybe?
hais.. will we do things to harm any1 in our family? maybe sometimes we let our emotions get control of us.. maybe we hurt someone else's feelings without even realising.. whatever we do.. it's because we care about each other and want our loved ones to become the good person we want them to be.. maybe if we start to look at things from each other's perspective.. there may be least quarrels and friction among us.. :) sian.. feel like i'm writing some sort of family analysing essay.. hahas..
-thEre'S nO pLacE liKe hoMe-
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