my mood kind of swings high n low these days.. like i will suddenly feel empty(as in my heart) for no reason(maybe listen to depressing songs? ha).. den i will feel high like in the next min.. but these couple of days.. i feel happy!! cos have alot of things to look forward to!! yay!! i like the feeling of happiness.. n i think i like it more when ppl ard me shares it.. (=
i love this song! 开天窗 - 五月天(open小将）
when i 1st heard it.. i tot it was too cutesy for my liking.. but like most mayday songs.. listen 2nd time then will like better.. then look at the lyrics will like even more.. end up will love the song!! hahas.. for me at least。。 =P
i think i really like how alot of ashin's lyrics have that unbeatable optimism in it.. without listening to the songs themselves just looking at what he writes can easily bring a smile to my face.. maybe the world does not have too much of it（太灰暗了）.. that kind of optimism he eludes in his lyrics.. so it's like when i'm feeling down n out/pessimistic.. i can see light from his lyrics/blog.. certianly brightens up my day.. (= n i realise there's alot of encouragement in his lyrics.. like asking ppl not to give up.. n be brave enough to pursue their dreams.. it's like the words i keep repeating to myself everytime.. keep ganbatte-ing!
[開天窗]
一隻鯨魚 要怎麼放進冰箱 打開門 然後用力關冰箱
然後呢 如果你還想要 放一隻大象
一份希望 要怎麼放進心臟 如果你 活的有一點悲傷
答案是 用力丟掉鯨魚 用力甩悲傷
是誰說半夜不能吃便當 是誰說彩虹不能長頭上
是誰說藍色就等於憂傷 你看看天空和海洋
順風時就展開雙翅飛翔 逆風時就當成在衝浪 沒有風的時候那就讓我 開開天窗
一句歌詞 怎麼讓你很難忘 方文山 林夕和我都在想
想破頭 也鑽不進一個 緊閉的心房
一個難題 要用多少的智商 多少淚 還有多少的盼望
多少人 變成緊閉門窗 孤獨的國王
- 我会用力去开心，勤奋的快乐下去！-
11:00 PM
Saturday, July 12, 2008Y
i love this song!!! so sad.. )=
- some things are inevitable -
8:13 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008Y
long week
somehow have lots of things i wanted to update.. but i don't have much time(i mean my bro wan use.. not that way of cos! choy)
monday.. working.. v tiring as usual.. hahas.. but met kq they all to watch the movie Get Smart.. which i think i nice!! really v cute n funny.. laughed alot.. was an enjoyable night.. heh.. oh issit me or wad.. but anne hathaway put on some weight? cos in one scene she wear bare shoulder dress.. den the back n squeeze till look quite meaty.. or am i mean.. like to talk abt ppl growing fat but hate ppl talking about me? ohohoho.. lol
tuesday.. nothing partically special happened.. only pot called n said her job ended cracked me up.. hahas.. cos she only went for 2 days n they wan terminate the contact.. not because she's too lousy(help u clarify).. is they over hire ppl i think.. lol
wednesday.. tuition.. very sad.. no ot again.. kaka.. but my tuitee is a v evil naughty lil girl.. always don't do my homework.. i shall make her do more math next week.. i have to keep wondering how much of my words got through her.. sometimes she can rmb things i said so clearly.. but most of the time she don't pay attention to me.. shows this blank look when i talk.. =.= kids are hard to understand.. well.. i don't even understand myself.. )=
thursday.. boring work.. n a new colleague.. whom i'm supposed to teach the system to her.. not that i really don't want to teach.. but.. i'm an ultra impatient person! n she needs to be told one thing many times b4 she can rmb.. n things which i told her.. then on fri(which is today).. she asked again.. i really wonder at my attempts at teaching.. no good at tuition.. n no good at work.. i think i showed my impatience at her once or twice maybe.. then i'd get guilty.. then say everything's ok.. i feel like a hypocrite.. ok maybe i am a hypocrite.. i would think of portraying myself in a way that would generate less dislike from ppl(under my own perspections maybe ppl will dislike me even more?) i mean cant go de2 zui4 ppl.. i'm also another staff there.. n it's not like i don't like her.. she's quite a nice person.. chatty also.. maybe i'm just uncomfortable with someone intruding on my space.. haiis.. hard to describe..
wonder y am i so complicated.. i want to do things alone.. then when ppl don't come n find me to do things.. then i'll feel that i'm ignored.. who can i me such a mao2 dun4 person!!! i want to be simpler! gosh! lol.. n sometimes i'm angry with myself for saying things without thinking.. like just tuo1 kou3 er2 chu1 stuff.. then i'd regret about those alot.. then about equal amout of times i'd have things on the tip of my tougue i stopped myself from saying cos i'd feel embaressed or bad about it.. but those thoughts alr crossed my mind so it's not like i'm that innocent just because i didn't say that thing out.. so maybe i'd be another totally diff person as the one i'm portraying now if i have the courage to just say what i want?
ok talked alot of crap.. hahas..
oh back to thurs.. went bugis to show for some ppl's prez.. havent felt so happy shopping for a long time.. i think when u're not trying to buy something for urself but somehow u bought something.. it's quite a nice feeling.. n i love my new slippers! kaka.. n spent so much money on those presents.. which for no reason makes me even happier.. i don't usually feel so good about shopping.. cos i don't like shopping.. but dunno y that day is happy~ hahas
n today.. i finally got back the feelin of 'how nice to have a fren sitting beside me for work'.. long lost since diethelm times.. hahas.. i missed the times i sat beside ym.. made the job more fun.. n i realise diethelm's work is really the most exciting n fulfilling one.. since need race against time n do the orders.. n take calls.. really did alot of things.. now the job.. is more monotonous.. hmmm.. just more boring.. lol..
oh but the company has some interesting ppl.. like one guy.. who's v small size.. think is on mon or smth.. helped carried the files from downstairs up.. den he was kind of looking at how we arrange the files on the shelves.. then i realised he's really small size.. then i think due to my overworked n overimaginative brain.. i suddenly got the impression of a lil boy with an old face.. very scary! but.. it's only that one moment in time.. after that i see him is normal le.. dunno y that moment i have that impression.. reminds me of 20th century boys.. hahas..
today.. fri.. tuition was alright.. at least she did the math i ask her to do.. hahas.. n just now ate some jap goodies bigky brought home.. though feel guilty nv go swiming tml with mom again.. but i got flu.. better dun go(excuses.. haha)..
wow really long entry.. heh
- more things which i don't dare to speak about only weighs me down -
