2 more days of freedom..
aiyo..... dunno how to describe my feelings now.. hmmm not to say scared la.. cos most likely i know how it's going to be la.. hmmm just dont want think too much now..
today i went out with ym.. hmm just go walk walk.. cos we're too bored? aiyo i realli dunno also.. hahas.. imm realli gt nth besides the 1st floor! that i did find out.. n the kopitiam there is nt as nice as jec's de.. wahahas.. bought a pair of jeans.. hmmm just like go this bossini.. choose abit.. then try.. then choose 1 n take le.. hmmm ok la.. at least gt 1 more jeans le..
aiyo i realli v fat.. n hors.. y comp so LAG?!! grr
sometimes i find that.. there's alot of things u wouldnt expect this person to do.. then she did it.. maybe it's just a small favor.. but at least she thought enuf of u to do this.. that's enough.. realli.. hmmm.. n alot of times i find the things which i do.. usualli have some hidden motive.. maybe ani1 ask me i wouldnt admit la.. but i dont think i want to kid myself n think i'm such a kind person.. maybe i just wanna portray this image in front of ppl.. hahas.. pathetic.. but maybe that's how i am..
i tend to fantasize alot.. reall damn LOT.. maybe it's because i'm realli nt satisfied with this person i am.. i know maybe u just have to accept who u are.. but i haven reach the point which i think i like the person i am now.. maybe that's y i keep dreaming of the things which i want to have n cannot have.. hahas.. maybe in the process i missed out alot of the stuff which i can have? i dont know.. life's still pretty unstable for me..
i watched this movie "click" yest with tians.. ok la.. not say it has alot of impact on me.. more of a comedy than anyth.. n i dont think the main actor is realli that good an actor.. but it is enjoyable.. cant expect hollywood movies to bring across much of a message.. but this movie did try.. hmmm maybe like alot of times.. we get tired of this period of life.. n we just want to fast forward thru all these n get to the time when we'd alr acheived everyth? but we did not know that in the process we're actualli missing out on other stuff?
this may not just apply in this way.. like me for instance? i think i spend more time with the computer than with my friends/family..
[cos of damn stupid lag i cont it on sat(today).. so it's 1 more day of freedom]
hmmm.. ya i was saying.. miss out things like a small joke here n there.. times to laugh at the tv tgt.. n basically normal talkin time? hmmmmm sometimes i feel v disgusted with myself.. i dont know y.. when any1.. particylarly my dad most of the times.. when he talk to me i feel very irritated.. goshh.. bad.. i know.. but aiya.. i'm still so damn short-tempered.. arghhhhhhh..
hehhs.. shant continue abt this th.. sounds so stupid now i look at it.. =P
4yrs is not a short time.. hmm at least i think so.. although same as sec sch yrs.. but also diff.. cos environment diff.. ppl diff.. everyth diff.. n the thing is.. we're all going to get older n older!! cant go back to the young sch days like in sec sch.. hahas.. sad truth about growing up.. awww....
- when i start to appreciate the things n people ard me.. will you do the same to me? -
11:23 PM
