Friday, October 13, 2006Y
yawn~
alone at home.. =X
dessert pizza any1? dont know if it's called that.. but.. it's very very very very very very very nice! image if it's freshly made by chefs.. *drools* still cant get over it though i ate it like some days ago.. not v fresh.. n made by my sis.. hahas.. well if there's a possibility that it comes out in pizza hut.. go eat! lol.. but it's my own preference only la.. i know my bro didnt touch(happy cos i can eat 2 slices!).. XD
~strawberries, chocolate and almond slices~ hey.. but this combi should be nice on anyother stuff too! lol
hmmmmm
tonight most likely will go m'sia.. my grandma is sick.. so most of us going back to see her.. granted.. i am not really close with her.. well basically we live our own lives n meet during newyear.. but when my mom said something like if she ****, i suddenly feel.. scared.. hmmm dont know how to describe.. like this person whom u've taken for grant who is always there may just go someday.. =X i dont like things which i dont know.. is there afterlife? are there really ghosts? in truth, i'm afraid of dying.. like just going back to the earth as nutrients? and eventually u'd disappear from everyone's mind.. there's nothing to proved that u'd existed......
should i do something which will grant me recognition even after my death(i wonder wad that thing will be).. or should i take it easy n live life as i want it.. enjoy myself leaving no regrets? regretably(ironic? lol), i think there are alr some things which i'd done which i feel regretful about.. well.. i'm only 19.. there's plenty of road to walk down in my life(comforting myself?).. it's kinda depressing to think like this.. hahas.. have to try and find out what i really want to do..
i was wondering.. if engineering is the choice for me.. i dont think i'm cut out for this job.. it seems.. very boring.. do i want to spend my life doing calculations on the stuctures i have to build? do i want to spend time lookin thru micrscope at the materials? i dont know!! T.T for someone who really hates math.. how am i going to go about managing all the complex calculations? it's scary to think that i'm going to work after uni.. how am i supposed to apply wad i'd learnt in lessons? maybe i'm still not that in depth into the course yet.. maybe.. some things just got to learn after u start working..
hmmmm.. i just got to discover these things by myself i guess.. still unclear about my directions.. but.. this is life.. if everyth happens according to wad i'd planned out.. it's not life anymore! XD
- grandma must get well! -
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