Thursday, December 27, 2007Y
suddenly feel like blogging
seems to have alot of feelings which r inside me.. cant describe and i don't think i have anyth which i can put into words.. but just suddenly feel like blogging..
so weird.. like i have alot things i want to say but it's too messy i cant really say.. hahas.. well i wonder if there's anyone like me.. having too many thoughts at the same time that you don't know wad to say?
sometimes i really hate my life.. 20yrs of accomplishing nothing.. if it's possible.. perhaps i wanna start all over again.. n do the things which i skipped through in my life.. however that's not possible.. n there're also things now which i don't think i want to give up n go back to start all over.. maybe i don't have a really perfect life(which i think is my uttermost desire).. i think no one can really have the life of their dreams right.. to make the most out of your life.. i wonder if it's too late to start now.. still i lack the courage.. well.. i wish i'm not so dissatisfied with the life i have now.. perhaps it's wrong to yearn for the things which others have?
sometimes i look at the people around me.. i spot some similarities.. n yet.. there's alot of differences.. no one can live the same life right? wow so many rhetorical qns.. hahas.. everyone have their own share of problems.. well i'm glad that all these qns n feelings only pop out once in a blue moon.. if not i think i'd have a terrible life thinking about all the qns which cant seemed to be answered..
i think perhaps i have not much of an ambition.. most of the time i just wish for things to happen like there's a miracle.. hahas.. cheating.. perhaps i need more effort.. but then again.. is effort alone itself enough?
oh ya.. the iweekly horoscope ask me to open my heart/mind.. hahas.. i think writing about these stuff lightens the load?
this seems like an ultra messy n incomprehensible entry to me.. hahas but no need to ask me not to think too much because i'd just forget everything after posting this entry.. i guess it's a weird characteristic of mine.. whining about life n forgetting about it right afterwards.. i do intend to live longer then now.. who knows what lies in the future right? heh heh i think it still looks pretty positive to me at the moment(though tml exam results out so maybe my future is bleak?)..
ok on to a more cheerful entry!! (=
- yay i feel much better alr -
6:47 PM
