Sunday, September 21, 2008Y
why is msn transferring so slow?
waiting waiting for my proj file.. humm dee dee dumm.. but end up.. will have to receive it later in the night again from my team mate.. cos it wont transfer fin b4 he need to go.. sian.. i wonder why did i wan to do the intro part of the proj.. it's soooooooooo difficult la!! ARGH!~ the mental stress is too much for the amt of thing i'm supposed to write!! grrr..
i realised my dad knows me in some ways better than i think.. well only that one or two things la.. hahas.. usually i dun think he understands me much.. i'm really not a very independant person.. i really wonder if i can live by myself in the future.. maybe i took too many things for granted.. meh~
went to a soka gathering after a veryvery long time.. nv like the chanting sessions.. i guess i'm just too lazy.. plus impatient.. i just cant stay still n chant.. =X but i guess if i had been consistant n persevered in the activities since young it'd be fun.. hahas.. anyways it's some sort of a friendship day.. with lots of cultural performances.. n i learned more abt the association n the teachings.. well i guess soka's mission(or motto or teachings or what u call that) is compatible with my character/thinking.. hahas..
like they keep saying.. a human's power is what makes the difference.. n a person can change the world.. which i feel is very.. encouraging? hahas dunno.. i think i just like the way that they say everyone can contribute to making the world a better place.. which is what i believe.. that the strength to change your destiny/life lies within yourself.. moreover u can use it to change/help the people ard you.. n i don't think in soka we're 'worshipping' anybody.. chanting is more like a concentrating point.. to channel all your faith n strength to fight your adversities.. dunno.. maybe that's how i view it bah.. or i'm just biased towards it? keke..
wah need go back to do my proj le.. very difficult.. hahas.. but i shall fight my adversity(considered as one? ha)! jiayou jiayou jiayou
- i hate my cowardy n hesistant character! -
i believe in the smile you show me.. don't let some moments of human weakness destroy it.. i aim to be a better person! (=
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