Sunday, January 16, 2005Y
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waahhhh.. "huan zhu ge ge" show is v sad lehs.. T.T haha.. ya i got watch.. think the more u watch the better it gets lehs.. i mean it's not really tat bad actually la.. hehes hai.. it's 8pm already and i haven started doing my hw.. think i'll do after i wrote this.. hai.. alot of things to do mans.. xcept that i'm always too lazy to do.. hai.. whywhywhy??!!! i really got to change la.. or how to pass my A's!!! arghhhhhhhh.. i hate myself!!!!!!! dunno y i see hw den dun feel like doing le.. maybe 'slack' is my middle name? or is it 'lazy'? bleahs..
i hate my stupid idiotic brother!!!!!! always neglect his studies to play wad stupid game.. -.- okayokay.. it's maple and i also play sometimes.. but he right.. he's
obsessed!!! ya.. tat's the word to describe him.. arghhhhhhhh.. when i typed this i was like.. who am i to chide him.. i'm neglecting my hw too!!!! :( whywhywhy??? maybe i have to change myself 1st b4 i can talk to him about changing.. ya!!! i can do this(have i been talking baout change for like
ages??!!!).. well.. quoting from my pe tcher: "if u don't think u cannot then u CAN!!" am not sure.. but shld sound something like tat la..
arghhhhhhh.. i hate him!!!!!!!! he's forever making my dad n mom angry.. cant he make them proud for a sec? today my mom found out that he hasn't been learning his ting1 xie3 and it made her damn angry la.. was banishing the cane at him and there was all these shouting n yelling.. okay maybe i'd seen her real mad b4.. but this time she's not only mad.. she's damn sad too!!! i think she's fighting back her tears while scolding him.. it's like he's completely hopeless.. she's gotten mad at him too many times and each time it's draining too much out of her.. actually she was talking about wad jumping off the block so she wouldn't have to care abt him already.. ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
the more i think of it the more mad i get!!!!!!! @!#)*)#&%)&#%)$*^)&)^*)#$&@#(&%(^^&)@*%*^)@*&$!!! tat idiot.. i dun think any scoldings he get will make any difference.. no matter how heart broken he made my mom or dad.. my mom would be raging or crying but he'll still continue to do his things like nothing has ever happened.. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant he be more sensible??!!! and to think all the mess he'd gotten all of us into.. always it's him who got dad or mom angry.. always they have to scold us too.. like it's out fault he turned out this way.. whether he turn out bad or good.. he only have himself to blame.. he chose it!!!
there he goes again.. making idiotic noises.. making me wanna box him in the head.. wad la.. mom n dad has always doted on him.. but he's been only making them sad or angry.. or even treat them as granted.. okay.. maybe i tend to get angry at dad for nth too.. but it's in my nature to be short-tempered.. look at mom!! think she passed the genes to me.. hai.. i'm trying to change.. but i just hate the way he treat them.. like his servants or wad.. esp to mom.. arghhhhhhhhh.. wad a stupid piece of shit i have for a brother!! somemore this shit got some huge attitude too!!!!!! :(
i love mayday.. listening to them got my mind off some thimgs.. hai but not all.. hai.. to al the people out there who are having problems.. u've got company.. gees.. still.. it's best to stay cheerful right? or i'll have wrinkles.. lols.. :)
-wow.. u've just noticed that life a bed of roses right? took u long enough to see..-
7:12 PM
