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i should continue about my gan2 xinag3 part from taiwan.. but hmmmm.. drag too long then forget le.. hehes.. too bad..
i mean forget wad i wan to say la..
anyways.. today i didnt go out again.. oops.. onli like any other saturday.. very bored.. n spent whole day in front of the comp again? do i sound like the anime show just released nt long ago? ok la.. me nt so extreme.. =X hahas..
recently keep going ptt.. sort of like a forum type of place.. but except it's nt viewed in m'soft explorer.. i think it's sort of like those news grp.. b4 m'soft internet explorer was invented.. those kind.. n yuppies(influenced by gs la!).. go there cos of mayday.. ok la.. nt everyth i do is because of them la.. hahas..
today heard some news about as.. maybe all are true.. but i still want to believe what i feel.. i'm an easily influenced person.. but this time i hope to hold my stand.. for the 5 ppl i like most in this world(excluding my frens n family.. they're on a diff level k? XD) waiting for their newest album patiently.. i just want to be a fan of them n their music.. spare me of gossips n rumors i dont wan them to spoil this feeling..
what is mayday? i realli dont know.. i dont know y i like them in the 1st place.. ok la.. i dont know most of the stuff i do in my life.. i'm still in a searching mode.. to find my purpose in life.. i do not wish my life to be gone just.... like this.. nothing significant.. nothing which will make me even have some regrets in my life.. i dont even know how to live life to the fullest.. years will pass b4 i know anyth actualli happened..
but at least i know.. if i have smth i like.. i must hold on to this fondness.. n dont let it become lost as time goes by.. i know this is not called "enjoying ur life to the fullest".. but at least it is someth i'll treasure to the rest of my life.. memories i know i wouldnt forget.. yes it'd fade.. but it'll always remain there..
uni's approaching.. hoho.. cant really say i'm excited or scared.. i'm more of a passive person.. maybe till that day itself then i'd feel those feelings.. most likely i'd be scared.. hahas.. it's still a challenge for me to make new frens.. but i'm trying.. trust me....... i hope i find some1 who likes mayday too.. XD =X hehehees..
alot of mayday's songs are about chasing ur own dreams.. sometimes lead me to think wad is my dream? wad do i realli want to become in the future? an engineer?(paiseh.. dunno wad else i can become besides that).. realli dunno.. i realli feel that i'm those kind of person.. just follow the flow.. go thru uni.. come out to work.. n earn money.. maybe if lucky get married n have kids n then... die peacefully? i dont know if it's cos i'm those kind of ppl who waited for things to happen without trying hard to make things happen? all talk n no action.. that's how i am.. even if my heart is very obviously telling me to rebel.. to do someth! i just cant get myself to do it.. sobbs.. pathetic...
quoting from takemoto of hnc:"is it worse to not know what you want? or to know what you want but cannot get there?" ok la.. nt the exact wording.. mem nt good enough.. hehes.. yuppies.. i dont know what i want... yet? i hope.. =X personally i think both are pretty bad.. like u dont know wad u wan.. v sad mahh!! like me! no direction.. n then if u know wad u wan n cannot reach that target.. also v sad!!! realli la.. aiyo.. =X
work sounds depressing...... but i'm still young!!! okies.. i'd try to play hard... n really STUDY hard this time round.. no more last chances.. i know.......... no more talk n no action le!! hehes.. n to the others out there still searchin ur way in this foggy twisted world... just to let u know i'm with you!!! XD then to those who found your path.. do ur best to stay on it all the way!! n reach ur destination!! XD oh even if u did sway from that path of urs.. u can join the rest of us homeless ppl n search for new path? hehehs..
- somewhere in the universe.. a lil solar system.. where the 3 planet from the sun.. is the green not so big earth.. and on it a tiny island.. at the west of this island.. in a hdb flat which hses thousands of ppl.. in a small apartment.. seated in front of a lil dell computer -
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