eh?
i always feel guilty after i snapped at ppl.. or talked too harshly(by my standards).. cos after that i'd feel.. ehh.. actually i don't mean it.. i'm not even angry.. just kind of irritated.. but it's just my char to be terribly annoyed by v lil things.. i'm not really angry or pissed most of the time.. but cant expect me to be in good mood every moment rite? but somehow i like to grumble about things.. it's hard to explain.. i tried alot of times to explain to my mom.. but failed..
oh ya.. the times i'm really pissed.. dun come n disturb me.. =.= short tempered..
i cant stand it when ppl talks to be about useless stuff.. if u wan to talk pls talk about things i like to hear.. like in sims2.. they minus relationship points with conversation topics does not match.. to tell the truth.. i get most annoyed when my dad tries to talk to me about things he thinks are funny but i dont think so.. =.=
i think y i feel guilty after 'scolding' ppl is because i always wan to be the 'good' guy.. like in outsider's eyes.. i wan to be the obedient one.. the friendly one.. n the kind one.. but seriously.. i think the more i try the worse i become.. so is it better to try to be a better person or just remain as you are when u know u're actually not a good person?
- i think i'd try to be me -
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